"The Habit"

I saw this Ad online today and so I started writing this blog post. So fitting, I told myself.

I’m a smoker. Yes. This is true. I’ve been smoking since 2005 and since then I had the hardest times getting out of the habit. Now, I’m kicking it out of my system. Today marks the first week of my being a smoke-free individual. I know I haven’t progressed that much, you know, but honestly I’m really working hard to stay away from it.

I used to make so many excuses just to have a reason to grab a stick. If I sense a really stressful workload ahead I’d runaway from my post, go out of the building, light a stick and I’m adrift. Many times I’ve thought smoking as a great activity to bond with my friends. That’s because most of them smokes. But isn’t that a wonderful reason to continue smoking? I want to spend time with my friends after work so I could shake the stress away and just have fun and talk while holding a cigar. It's sort of a tool to bring us all together, huddle-up (with the absence of beer), talk, open-up and confide. It simply makes EVERY social gathering pleasurable that you’d want to stay there together a lot longer. So there, Smoking galore!

Well, I’m enough of this. I’m grabbing a stick later. I can’t quit smoking and live to tell the story. I can’t just get over it right now. I’m sorry but I think it’s too hard to stop. For now, the habit stays.

Chocolate Therapy

I was doing the usual Link Building for my new blog site - http://aynakowes-notebook.blogspot.com, when I had a sudden Migraine attack. It was really bad that I was forced to buy me something sweet to eat. Nothing satisfying was available so I grabbed my favorite Oishi's Pillows. I thought it much better than grabbing a stick to light if I'm staying away from it. He-he.
When I went back surfing the net I stumbled in a thought of yearning. It was my sweet tooth singing. Chocolates my sweet, it said. The voice kept ringing until I was stuffed with such an emotional turmoil that took me the entire afternoon to get rid of. I didn’t notice I was already pestering my friend KC about my condition that she told me it must've been my cigarette withdrawal (it's been a week since I last piped a cigarette). I refused to believe and so I forced myself to just concentrate on my link building project. Couple more hours and the thought still nag (not to mention the Migraine killing me). I stuffed in some of Pillows and I was sold. Now, my quick fix for a stubborn Migraine is just a bag of Pillows.
Suddenly, a whole new world of fondness embraced me like a real Pillow hug. But it wasn’t just Pillow anymore. It’s Chocolate itself. I realized I’m melting to a new addiction – Chocolates!


Well, I think I’m solved for now. So for you, here’s some Chocolate Quotes. Go ahead muse yourself. Grab a bite of that chocolate bar. Indulge!
* There are four basic food groups-milk chocolate, dark chocolate, white chocolate and chocolate truffles.
* Man cannot live on chocolate alone; but woman sure can.
* Strength is the capacity to break a chocolate bar into four pieces with your bare hands - and then eat just one of the pieces
* A little too much chocolate is just about right.
* All I really need is love, but a little chocolate now and then doesn't hurt!
* Put "eat chocolate" at the top of your list of things to do today. That way, at least you'll get one thing done.
* Among life's mysteries is how a two pound box of chocolate can make a woman gain five pounds.
* Stress wouldn’t be so hard to take if it were chocolate covered.
* Eat a square meal a day - a box of chocolate.
* In the cookies of life, friends are the chocolate chips.
* Chocolate causes certain endocrine glands to secrete hormones that affect your feelings and behavior by making you happy. Therefore, it counteracts depression, in turn reducing the stress of depression. Your stress-free life helps you maintain a youthful disposition, both physically and mentally. So, eat lots of chocolate.

* All quotes are courtesy of http://recipes.chef2chef.net/recipe-chocolate/famous-chocolate-quotes.htm.

These are a few of my favorite things...

I love Coke Light for breakfast! Sorry Ma, I just can't help it! If I can't get myself to the nearest Starbucks or just a self-made cup of coffee, you'd see me tossing a bottle (or a can) of Coke Lights (or the latest Coke Zero). Just can't contain my draught that's it.



I love Chocolate Cakes! This is my comfort food aside from chocolate itself and coffee. Oopps! Is coffee considered a food? Well, for me it is. He-he.






I love coffee! I'm a self-confessed coffee addict. I could down two (2) cups in one sitting with a book at hand and would entirely forget what I'm reading. It's my fuel in the morning and at night. If times are hard I'd come running for a cup and just sit beside my window, stargazing. But if it's Saturday and the Basher Girls are around I'll be out brewing coffee at Starbucks with them. Cheers!



I love the Beach and getting myself tanned and believe me when I say I want to. I'm really a frustrated Filipina you know.



I love the night time. It treats romance with coldness so daylight can come shining in giving warmth to the heart. The stars are a different story though...



I love Naruto Shippuden! This, I think, out of all the Japanese animated series I've watched has the best, if not has the most kicker interpretation of the word 'Friendship'. Well of course we can count Furuba in.



So if I'm talking Japanese animation you won't miss me saying the word "Chi.." This anime for me is the most romantic of all that I've seen. Okey, so I'm not a real fan, well so what?! I don't really care about all of them animes, all I care is how credible the stories are and if they're really worth watching. Chobits is one series I'd watch in line with any Julia Robert's flick. Chi is just sooo cute!



I love writing stories. I am by far the most frustrated writer of all the Saturday Basher Girls. He-he. Well, that's because I'm the only one who hasn't been given a chance to take on a professional stint in writing. Oh well, I think my time will come. *giggles*





I Love Paulo Coelho! He's just such a brilliant writer whom I'd like to have a cup of coffee with when I become a successful writer. Ahi-hi.

Well, these are just a few of my favorite things. I know I'm into so many things but time can only permit me to show you just some of theme for now. I'll have them presented to you so other time though. He-he.

Si Nightmare at si Puling

For some reasons my younger brother and sister are not home for the summer. They’re in some part of the world, far from the defiant stares of our folks. They say all is good, that they’ll be back before the start of terms (next week). But still nothing’s been the same without them around the house.

I call my brother Nico – Nightmare and my sister Iris – Puling. They’re the cutest for me, both huggable and so entertaining to be with. Nightmare was the one who introduced me to a whole new world of anime, especially Chobits and Naruto, and the one who is to blame for my busted pc. I’d always catch him sneaking around my room to try the newly installed RC games when he thought I’m still asleep and would sometimes try to impress me by creating some photo manipulations in Photoshop. “Hay, kids, always playing on the microphone. Doing things…blah-blah-blah…”

Iris or Puling is the middle child. And as a middle child she’s expected to be the weirdest. Turns out she’s the only one upright. Bash! When we were younger, about like years before Nightmare came, she was my baby. I’d be her super ate in school who’d shoo off her bully classmates tormenting her in the hallways because she’s fat. But now she’s really bigger than me (not to mention looks older) and I am now the one who’s always in trouble looking for cover so I’d just slide behind her when the going gets tough.

I miss my siblings so much now that when I go out of my room and would see the closed doors of Puling’s room and the stashed Naruto DVD’s of Nightmare I’d go like, “Have we grown up that much now or what is just me aging?”

Dream Away

Well, what can I do then, eh? This is now the usual me, unpredictable, unstable, always confused, always wonder, and is close to being so dumb. Yikes! My days were never the same since I left work and chose a laid-off life, unwaged and utterly useless. Must be my head revolting now like saying, "This is not you, Ayin! Get up you lazy fool!" But I really can’t do anything about that now, right? I have a great deal of reasons why I left and one of them is this: My Medical Condition. I have failing Potassium intake and was told to stop fooling myself that I could still get enough from working at night and sleeping in the day. Sleep in the morning isn’t good enough to cover the sleep you’re supposed to do at night, my doctor told me. So just rest on Ayin and take life easy now soon you’ll get better. Go ahead, indulge in that warm and balmy bed of yours let the stars to light your night and the wind from the wide open windows serenade you to sleep until the morning comes to let the daylight in.