Still

I must be damned. Because still I'm in this situation where I know I'd been for the last five years of my life. It's nothing really, only, I think I'm going to be a disaster.

Blueberry Muffins for breakfast

Saturday.

It has been exactly three weeks now since I started working as a student assistant at my colleges' dean's office..and up to now I still have a hard time waking up at 4am just so I can catch the early (but surely) tricycle ride out to the city.

I'm not a morning person. And I don't think anybody is either. But don't get me wrong okay. I mean, I love waking up in the morning and watch the sunrise, warm my face with its glow and baske in its all time glorious beauty. Who doesn't, right?

But who the hell can wake up that early and not wished she could take her pillow to the bathroom and sleep while the water to warms up. I can't imagine someone enjoying an early bath straight from eating breakfast or drinking coffee without gritting my teeth.

Blah.

Anyway, that's just me saying all these silly things. And I blame it on Gardenia's Blueberry Muffins. Why do you have to taste soooo good??? Because of you, now I look forward for breakfasts.

Breaking dishes

And they say there ain't nothing a girl like me can do to terrorize the neighborhood? Think again when my friends and I started having fun. Ha-ha. Just kidding.

Oh, this makes me feel so like LaLohan in Georgia Rule. Only I don't have a mom like Felicity Huffman (damn) and only got a Jane Fonda aunt (minus the body stats). Getting over it then I have to say that this times 'rule breaking' is definitely the most wicked one I'll ever have in my lifetime.

Reverse and then drive off... really fast.

It started when I was vomiting on the floor of the bar and everyone at the table (including my savior V) had to shove me off of the table and in to the unexpected 'getaway car' of Benj. I could hardly make out what was going on outside even if I'd try so hard to put my head out of the open window. The car isn't moving just yet, don't worry. Until I heard someone, probably Arturo (yeah I guess that's his face), said something like "You have to drive the car really fast!"

I thought he just trying to test Benj's agility or something and so I had to laugh. But when Ken got in to my right dragging Noan by the hand and V on my left almost falling on the floor of the car, and Arturo on the passengers seat looking somewhat harassed and finally Rose ducking on top of Benj on the driver's seat, I knew something was wrong. Terribly wrong.

Or rather stupendously wrong.

We broke off into the night to somewhere just to cool down. I saw crumpled bills on the dashboard of the car and recounted some voices shouting in delight. I had to laugh because I now understand what went wrong. Punks!

Have I told you lately...

...that I'm no good at pretending?

Probably not. But I'm pretty sure that if you've had the chance to sit close to me for at least five minutes (even without talking) you'd tell me I need not say it. But unfortunately for those who had stayed longer than that and still demanded an answer for the question "what the hell is wrong with you?" Think again, my friend.

Because, sadly, you may not be my friend at all.

Anyway........

The Songs I Play, Over and Over Again

I was just listening to the latest music installed here on my blog from the Tavares when I got a chat from KC that rocked my day I had to post it. It's what she noticed from me when I like a song so much that I play it over and over...and over... and over and over until it already becomes so annoying to hear.

Here's a list of songs I think I had played the most so far. Oh, before you scroll down… Please don't laugh.

1. Always – Blink 182 (This was like a friendship song for me and a best friend of mine.)
2. Are you ready for Love? - Elton John (This is just one sweet song. A song that’ll inspire you to love more)
3. Bad Girl – Usher (I remember hearing this song the very first time I went to a bar. The rest was so history.)
4. Benny and the Jets – Elton John (This is my second favorite Elton John song – next to Philadelphia Freedom)
5. Big Spender – Penny Lee (Oh how I wish I could do a dance to this song just for one time wearing only a red bustier, a skimpy black skirt and then a black knee-high leather boots underneath it is black net stockings. Rawr!)

6. Bossy - Lindsay Lohan (I memorized this song in hours wishing one day when I'm at a bar this song will play and I'm the only one, the only one who could shake a booty to this. That of course never happened.)
7. Can't help falling in love - A*Teens (No laughing, I said!)
8. Chaotic - Britney Spears (I don't know what's up with Britney and her songs but they just makes me go gaga. Gosh, so like her!)
9. Coffee and Cigarettes – Michelle Featherstone (I never really was serious in getting away from my vices but I can deeply relate to this song. ‘I must quit. I must quit. You.’)
10. Crying like a church on Monday - New Radicals (This song made me cry a lot.)

11. Damn Girl - Justin Timberlake (Makes a fitting song for my exercise routine. I just had to keep my hips from pumping too much from the beat.)
12. Deliver Us – Ofra Haza, from The Prince of Egypt soundtrack (Love the voices of the men singing.)
13. Deep – Sum41 (I love singing this song and then pretending I was on lead guitars.)
14. Do you remember - Aaron Carter (Are you laughing at me again?)

15. Don't stop me now - Queen (I love this song so much I'd sing it anywhere, anytime.)
16. Draw Me Close – Kutless (There are so many version of this song. But now that it’s been done by a band it doesn’t seem to anyone who hears it as a Christian song anymore. Don’t get me wrong, I love the Katinas version too.)
17. Eternal Flame - The Bangles (You just gotta love that girl who sang this version. Amazing voice, I tell you)
18. Everyday I write a book - Elvis Castello (Because I fell in love with this song so much at one time I wrote a story with the same title)
19. Fall for you - Secondhand Serenade ("coz a girl like you is impossible to find, impossible to find. You’re impossible to find.")
20. Falling - N*sync (Okay, having this band on my playlist isn’t that bad at all. This song in particular is worth playing over and over again.)

21. Feedback – Janet Jackson (I just can’t help dancing to this one.)
22. Gimme more - Britney Spears ("Well, it's Britney b*tch")
23. Give it to me - Madonna Ft. Pharell ("get stupid, get stupid, get stupid")
24. Hands down - Dashboard Confessionals (It was my friend Kaiye who got me listening to this when I was still in the Billing Dept. This and Screaming Infidelities were the only ones I had favored so much from the band.)
25. Hey Sexy Lady – Shaggy Ft. Sean Paul (I’m a fan of the Victoria’s Secret fashion shows, so, what can I say?)
26. Hip-hop Star - Beyonce (I remember memorizing this song while doing the KSTV video. I wasn't really that bored)

27. Hoppipolla - Sigur Ros (I swear I am in love with this song.)
28. Hot Blooded - Foreigner (A movie called "In the Land of Women" got me hooked on this. And then I met Vince and he gave me a different meaning of this song)
29. Hypnotized - Plies Ft. Akon (I once visualized myself dancing to this song on stage with my immaculately long hair curled at the ends swaying to the music. Haayy, dyosa!)
30. I Choose You - Mario (Ate Marie, my boardmate, made me listen to this song on her iPod and I was automatically smitten)

31. If it makes you happy – Sheryl Crow (‘I promise you I’d never give up. If it makes you happy, it can’t be that bad. If it makes you happy, then why the hell are you so sad’)

32. I Got that Boom Boom - Britney Spears (Breathe hard…)
33. I'll never fall in love again - Elvis Castello (I had to stop listening to this song because it was starting to become the soundtrack of my life. Yikes!)
34. I'm yours - Jason Mraz (Take me…take me…take me to Belize or Rio de Janeiro or to where ever you want to travel to for your next video.)
35. Just feel better – Santana Ft. Steven Tyler (I could hear myself singing this song some time when I’m already too exhausted in life. Sigh.)
36. King of wishful thinking – Go West (It was the movie Pretty Woman that made me want to listen to this song over and over the same number of times I watched the movie.)
37. Love in this club – Usher (I like Usher and his sexy lyrics. Reminds me of Kyam Shung massage. Aw!)

38. Love isn’t easy – ABBA (Oh who can’t resist listening to this song. The beat is just so cute!)
39. Mamma Mia – ABBA (This is the first ABBA song I really fell in love with. That time I just broke up with my then boyfriend.)
40. Mother, we just can't get enough - New Radicals (‘Make my nipple hard, let's go!’)

41. Nina pretty ballerina – ABBA (Another cute song from the group. Oh I love them so much!)
42. Nothing’s gonna change my love for you – Jack Wagner (This song is just timeless.)
43. Our House – Phantom Planet (Oh but of course this is a love song.)
44. Out of my mind – Fastball (This song is a lifetime LSS (Last Song Syndrome) Only I don’t know why)
45. Party People – Nelly Ft. Fergie (There was a time in my life I thought I could be a rapper and sing Fergie’s line. Gibberish. LOLx)
46. Philadelphia Freedom – Elton John (Oh this is my favorite Elton John song. I really would love to sing it to Elton one day. Ha-ha feeling!)
47. Redemption Song – Lauren Hill & Ziggy Marley (‘Won’t you help to sing’)

48. Sam’s Town – The Killers (You have to listen to the Abbey Road version. After watching it, I hated myself for not taking my piano lessons seriously when I was younger.)
49. Steve McQueen – Sheryl Crow (Whenever I listen to this song I tell myself one day I will be a rocker chic.)
50. Sun comes up – John Legend (My ultimate Patrick Dempsey song.)

51. Tainted Love – Marilyn Manson (Kids, do not try listening to it at home. Go outside.)
52. That’s not my name – The Ting Tings (I used to deny that I was hooked to this song. That is because I only learned of it when it everyone else is already tired of hearing it from almost everyone)
53. The Kiss – Joby Talbot, from Penelope soundtrack (Reminds me of how much I’m in love right now)
54. The Man who can’t be moved – The Script (A possible stalker song. Uh-oh!)
55. Truthfully – Lisa Loeb (Truthfully, I really can’t explain)
56. Turn your lights down low – Lauren Hill’s version (I just hated the rap part. But all in all it’s simply perfect.)
57. Unpredictable – Jamie Foxx (I honestly have no idea why I started listening to this song. But I know why I can’t stop. :D)
58. Vogue – Madonna (I just thought knowing all the names of the celebrities mentioned in this song could one day be useful when I join a game show on TV and win a million pesos.)
59. What makes you different – Backstreet Boys (I used to wish this song would be dedicated to me by any guy who wouldn’t be too sickened to know that I’m a die-hard BSB fan.)
60. When we were young – The Killers (‘He doesn’t look a lot like Jesus, but he talks like a gentleman’)
61. Word up – Korn (I’d like to sing this song the next time I go karaoke and I’ll sing it really, really loud.)
62. Yat Voya Ne Per Voya - T.A.T.U. (I'm still addicted to this song)

63. You Gotta Love Someone – Elton John (This song is so Elton John.)
64. Your Disguise – James Greenspun (Included in the Penelope soundtrack I remember closing my eyes listening to this song and then hurting them badly again because I was having a hard time finding where I can download it on the net for free.)
65. 7 Things – Miley Cyrus (I do not insist that you believe people who will tell you that the reason why I’m starting to listen to Miley Cyrus is because I was once told I look like her and so they think I go around saying “yeah, I look like, don’t I?” . Sha!)

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