Year - End Special (Part 1)

Looking back, I don't understand why I didn't have enough time to even write a single post about Christmas. I was checking my weekly report submitted every Monday morning to my boss in Singapore and I realize I was doing nothing but the same stuff I had been doing for the last 6 months at work. I couldn't believe it myself. How I had failed to update my blog with my misadventures is really disappointing me big time. Anyway, I won't sulk on that anymore. Instead I'll... err... just highlight the most memorable things (good and bad, that has happened to me . All in the spirit of Christmas. Yeheeee!

1. January - A.) Best friend Tin (Stacy) left office to pursue a life in Singapore. Oh well, she hadn't really left the country yet, but that marked the start of the revolution in my call center life. I remember the feeling that when she's gone nothing will be the same again at work. And I was right. She was one of my mentors, one of the people who had kept the fire burning inside our frozen hearts. When she left, we felt frozen alive. B.) My forgetful and misleading memory. I marked my calendar for my other best friend Cute's (Andie) birthday - January 28. Later did I found out that it was on the 21st. A huge gap between me and her came upon and we had lost touch. It took us months for her to finally forgive me and for me to finally accept I have a bad memory.

2. February - Basher Girls was born. On the 16th of February, sitting at Starbucks, The Shang were four girls who had not stopped ranting and bashing the most tormenting, unbearable and if not the most horrible people in our lives (ahem) from nine o'clock in the morning until about two in the afternoon. Coffee has brought us all together. Oh but of course it really wasn't the start, but it was indeed the start of the every Saturday Basher session and the mission to dine at all the S'bucks branch in the Philippines, take pictures and make all our detractors drool over us. That of course never happened. Ahek!

3. March - South of the border, West of the Sun by Murakami. This, I remember so well, but not the story verbatim or anything close to that, you know my memory capacity right? Anyway, this book jumpstarted the whole book reading mania in me again. After this I could hardly remember myself not reading a single book every month.

4. April - An emotional month for me. This, now, I no longer understand why had happened to me (and why was it remarkable anyway haha). But seriously, I read a few of my previous friendster blog counts and I was suddenly reminded of that thing we call ... (ahem)... emotionally unstable.

5. May - My retirement from the call center life. Yeah, freedom! Wuhoo! Well, I really hadn't had the chance to say that out loud when I was walking out the door and realizing I would miss it all again some time soon. And I was right. Right here, right now, I'm finally admitting I miss the call center life. Because I get to drink coffee without conviction. Whahehehe adik!

6. June - A.) My shopping spree birthday celebration. Okay, just for the record, I didn't really get to spend that much amount of money on stuff, you know, but what I did is just bought myself an entire new wardrobe and then feed my family to the fullest with my most favorite foods in the world (that is roasted chicken and Sansrival cake, yum!) B.) The Case with my ex. Okay, for the first time in months I am again talking about this serious encounter with my ex-boyfriend and his so-called wife. The war of the words was awful and really heartbreaking knowing that finally I had found the courage to shut the feeling down of wanting to fight back. I remember I was in an emotional turmoil fearing that my courage will soon melt away. But then I also remember how my friends had stood beside me during those times, reminding me that I am just gonna be fine.

To be continued....

That's Not My Name

That's Not My Name by The Ting Tings at the Victoria's Secret 2008-2009

Damn this song is sooo catchy! And how about mixing it and then use it as a runway song for the Victoria's Secret models to play with. Oohh, I love it!

Questions from A to Z

Let's do a little revelation tag once again and learn funny and serious stuff about me and my friends whom I'll be tagging along at the latter part of the list. By the way, thanks again to Kate for brining some excitement again to this blog. I haven't been tagged for such a long time now (months I'm talking about) so I had a hard time answering the questions. Anyway, enjoy everyone!

Questions for Ayn Descalsote:

A.) Attached or single? — Romantically Attached
B.) Best friend? — Eeyan Quinabo, KC Ochoa Tin Nazario, Cathleen Guerrero, Eddison Corpuz, Lulu Mendoza, Kulet, Eunice Francisco, Vince Natividad, Che De Jesus, Jeelyn Chung, Clarissa Bataanon
C.) Cake or pie? — Definitely cake.
D.) Day of choice? — Sunday. I can’t do anything about my laziness at my age. He-he.
E.) Essential item? — Lip gloss because my lips chap a lot. My watch because I can’t go anywhere not knowing what the time is, and also because I feel incomplete without it in my arm.
F.) Favorite color? — Currently into Blue.
G.) Gummy bears or worms? — Gummy worms
H.) Hometown? — Angono. Ideal place for a laid-back person like me.
I.) Favorite indulgence? — Music, I’d survive a day of horrendous research with it.
J.) January or July? — January, because I always get a feeling that I have evolved
K.) Kids? — I’ve none. But I’d only want 2 in the future.
L.) Life isn’t complete without? — love, understanding and freedom.
M.) Marriage date? — Not married yet. LOLx
N.) Number of magazine subscriptions? – none but I’d like to get one from National Geographic.
O.) Orange or apple? — Apple.
P.) Phobias? — nothing extreme just that I’m scared of crossing bridges (big or small) and riding a ship or a boat.
Q.) Quotes? — Life doesn’t want us to be the best but to try to do what is best to live it.
R.) Reasons to smile? — kids laughing, good music, great food, the best pillows in a comfy bed and a long good night kiss from my beloved.
S.) Season of choice? — Summer. I love getting tanned.
T.) Tag 5 people – C, E, Shane, Lu, Cute
U.) Unknown fact about me? – That I'm not good at promises, but you have my word if I say so.
V.) Vegetable? — Kangkong!
W.) Worst habit? — Smoking and drinking and then not remembering too much of what happened the night of hard drinking. Sigh.
X.) X-ray or ultrasound? - I haven't tried both, but I think I'll go for ultrasound.
Y.) Your favorite food(s)? – Adobong Kangkong ng mama ko, Pinakbet ng mama ko, Chicken Adobo ng mama ko, Chicken Barbecue ng papa ko, Chicken Pastel ni Tita Flor, Bicol Express ni Tito Maning, Fried Tilapia, Tuna Sashimi, Pancit Canton ng papa ko, Chunkie Corned Beef, Beef Loaf, Beef Goulash, Beef Caldereta ng mama ko, and Siomai.

Z.) Zodiac Sign - (Eastern) Ox (Western) Gemini

Short messages

When I opened my computer today I was shocked to see my blog, this blog, with its last post about my grievances. I almost panicked knowing that a lot of people (some are across the globe) who constantly visits my site may in any minute bombard me with "are you still in this kind of state?"

Well, ok, for the record, I've already recovered. Ha-ha. Thanks to a whole bunch of people who got me through all those nasty vibes in me.

Eeyan, you deserve a fraction of my heart for pushing me out of my relationship blues by flooding my Inbox with lots of hearty scoldings.

C, for sharing your emotions over a cup of my favorite Praline Mocha with the music from the piano playing from the basement of The Shang, because we haven't or shall I say I haven't experienced that with you again for what seemed like a very long time. I wanted to cry that night realizing how much I missed talking to you just like old times! Heck, where have I been, huh?

John, for... umm... yeah, the coffee ha-ha! Oh yeah, and for taking care of Eeyan too.

To Lu, who is the.. ahem.. ultimate girl magnet? Wahahaha eat your heart out boys. I really would not have made it through that Saturday without this guy. So Marian, if you're reading this, say yes. Ha-ha-ha!

To Vince who drove me off the wall the entire weekend for his disappearing act. It is just one and a half day though I learned a lot from that. Moral of the story: Don't over text your boyfriend/girlfriend whom you know will be going out of town. The out-of-town destination might not be that friendly (available) with their cellular phone service provider, thus, making them unaware of your panic attacks.

To Mama who brought the house down with her treat of overflowing KFC Chicken and Chocolate Crinkle Ice Cream for dinner. The best (kahit na halos pumutok na tyan ko sa dami kong nakain)!

To all the new friends I met over the week who all the more gave me a reason to smile. The old woman who grabbed me by the arm and asked me to sit beside her on the jeepney on my way to Antipolo. She related me stories about her two sons who seems to enjoy the bachelor life not knowing that their mother, her, is already wanting a grandchild. I looked away when I realized she was looking at me appraisingly. Sadly, I wasn't able to get her name. To Shafi, Lavine, Taxy and Jake, who frequents my blog but doesn't leave me a message at leaset, hmp! And finally to my new beautiful friends Saywen, Jenny Hernandez, Kate Cancio and Russel. Wuhoo!!! Girl Power!

Everyone, Thank you!

Maybe I think too much

I wondered, as I sit on my bed facing a very battered looking laptop in the middle of the night, why am I so pissed? The people around moves swiftly to bed gazing at me like I'm some kind of lunatic on the wall. And I thought how stupid of me to ever start my hands on a post for my blog again when there is nothing in this world that is worth thinking of but knowing how to be able to get my self to sleep. Because right now, sleep is impossible.

I don't know. Maybe because someone I had been expecting turned me down today. Sadness. Maybe the new task of finding the Super Proxy site is killing me. Horrible. Maybe because Christmas is too soon I still haven't got the time to window shop for my wish list. Oh, is there going to be a wish list? Maybe because it has been days that I am feeling so sickly. Sigh. Maybe because I just realized how hard I need to be bashed this Friday. Amfufu! Maybe because I miss someone so much I want to cry. Sadness! Maybe because there are migrating-to -foreign-land issues at work. No way. Maybe because I had been depriving myself of something with someone lately. Sadness!!! Maybe because I'm still not over my eating disorder. Idiot me. Or maybe... just maybe... I think too much.

Oh whatever. It's just a very very sad and lonely night for me. You wouldn't want me to capture this moment on camera or you'd be broken-hearted too.

PS. To all the people who had been affected by this post. I'm sorry. I didn't intend to be hurt, to share the hurt and then hurt you in turn . I just think I have this abandonment issues going on with me that I'm having a hard time dealing with right at this very moment. So please, bare with me.