Friday, August 6, 2010

A Letter from the Bottom of my Heart

Dear Reader,


I'm sorry, but I'll be gone soon.

I will be back. I promise.

I just needed time to reset.

It's true, I'm not okay. Everything I could think of right now is about dying. Dying and be nothing more than a mist.

Because it's so hard to be human. It's so hard to live.

It's painful enough to wake up everyday and sleep during the night crying to sleep, mending broken dreams, wishing desperately for collosal hapiness or at least an escape. But then in the end having none of this at all.

I really figured that in order for me to live again I should die a million times. Because it has also been a million times I had my smiles in the past and now I'm bound to frown.

Crying.

Leaving.

Death.

It all sounds so easy but are all the hardest to bare. So in this note I'd like you to know I wouldn't commit the latter in physicality. :D

So, to everyone who has been there for me thru all of these drama, thank you. Thank you for being there for me. Your names need no mentioning (nakakahiya ang cheezy kasi eh hehe). Anyway, at least through all of you I'm leaving with a happy sense of understanding that I have friends who value issues such as what I'm going thru right now, and I won't forget you all for that.

I'll see you all soon.

Peace and Love,
Ayn

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