My Fabricated Thoughts

Welcome to my fabricated thoughts. This will be my personal notebook about my life from now on. Not because I’m tired of Friendster, Multiply or my Greatest Journals but because I just want a site that will feature my name on top as in like the URL. Ha-ha.

Anyway, let me introduce myself, for the nth time.

My name is Ayn. I am 22 years old. I am the eldest in the brood of three and probably the thinnest in our family (that’s because the rest of them are fat). We’re a family of food lover. My father has the real talent in cooking while my mom, well; let’s just say she is good at cooking but not consistently good at it. I have two siblings, second to me is named Iris; she has turned 21 and my younger brother Nico at 9. They all live in our house in Antipolo while I stay in my Auntie’s place in Marikina.

I was born June 16, 1985 under the sign of Gemini. It said that I’m either a good listener or a good speaker. I thought I am both. I am not a fan of superstitions or the likes of it, really, but I can be one if you lead me to http://www.newagestore.com/tarot/reading.asp, hehe. I have a 5-month-old Pit bull given by my friends Andie and Kulet as a birthday gift. I named her Yucky and due to some circumstances (which I can’t explain to my self either), I simply don’t want to take care of her.

When I’m in our house in Antipolo I’m just often inside my room. I use to share it with my sister but as we grew older and due to our rampant mood swings, conflict in ideals and beliefs, and the usual sisterhood gap she had to move out. In my room I sleep all the time or if I’m really helpless I’d listen to my mp3, read a book or scribble my thoughts on my journal. I’m a big fan of the Backstreet boys, Britney Spears, Christina Aguilera, Macy Gray, Madonna, The Killers, Incubus, Jojo, Lindsay Lohan, Justin Timberlake, Garbage, Korn, Limp Bizkit, Bjork and a whole lot more. When I was younger I’m really into the pop culture until I heard of Brandon Boyd. I am at my happiest when I’m there in my room just staring at the wide-opened windows and stare blankly at the rays of light as it hit my bedroom wall. I really do not know the ways inside the house. Cleaning, cooking and laundering is not my thing but I do push my ass up when my room or the house needs tidying. I can only cook hotdogs, eggs, canned corned beef and my favorite instant noodles. I am nowhere near the talent of my mother or father in the kitchen. I no longer eat pork, and that’s not because of any stupid diet or religion but because it makes me sick, period. I love Jollibee’s famous fried chicken. I love Go Nuts donuts as well (Amazing Glaze, baby!). I love eating pizza, Crispy fries, vanilla ice cream, Oreo cookies, Coke, chocolate milks, Cadbury Chocolates, Butterfinger, Lasagna, Wendy’s Ceasar Salad, Starbucks’ Coffee Latte and Caramel Frap with 2 servings of Espresso, Coffee Bean’s Chocolate Dream, McDonald’s Chicken Fillet and ad infinitum. He-he.

I had been a part of my college student council. I was a staff member for the Arts and Designs Committee and a Literature team contributor for our school paper called The Paragon. I enjoy writing, reading and sketching. I love everything about arts and literature. Sometimes I imagine myself living in Rome or Barcelona or in Paris touring their most famous art galleries and museums. I once daydreamed about walking in The Louver and exploring it ala Robert Langdon in The Da Vinci Code. Another day I thought I was the one who wrote The Alchemist and the Lemony Snickett’s Series of Unfortunate Events but only end up clutching it tightly inside the malls bookstore, daydreaming. My ambitions made me write a general fiction novel that I have had on drafts for more than a year now. I called it The Consolation. It’s a unfinished and is still in my editor caring arms. Hi ma’am! : P. I’ve been trying my hands on Photoshop and learned a couple of tricks there for s short span of 2 months but I’m no pro, just some wannabe photo manipulator. He-he.

I played high school softball for two years and had tried basketball and table tennis as well. I watch the NBA’s but not as often I could now that I’m working graveyard shift. I love watching tennis especially when it’s Andy Roddick, Feliciano Lopez or Roger Federrer playing. I am sporty yes because I enjoy it but when I discovered my illnesses, take note, illnesses, I almost forgot how fouls are committed in basketball. Hmmm…. But seriously, I am not terminally ill. I just had been diagnosed with viral infection twice and hyperthyroidism or the so-called Potassium disorder when I sort of stopped smoking. Okay, mom and dad, if you’re reading this, I can explain so please stop yanking the knife. :D

In few words I am a lover not a fighter. I can be tough at times but that only happens when I am persuaded. I could be what you want me to be as long as I can manage it, but if I can’t, don’t worry I’ll let you know. I loose my tongue when I’m angry or sad, meaning I don’t really talk it over, I’d just rather keep quite until my mind is all set. I’m downright a wallflower at get-togethers but good at crowds. I know how to party or rock and I know when to chill. I know when to be smile and when to cry; I know who should be treated right and who should be not. And I know when to be a good girl and when to be really bad.

Welcome to my world. Welcome to my Fabricated Thoughts!